For some reason I find it difficult to get back into writing ‘normal’ posts again. It has taken me a while to even get back into a normal routine at home knowing that there are so many that cannot return to theirs due to the flood that happened almost two weeks ago. We were displaced for a week, and yes, we became quite frustrated by the end. Mostly due to the fact that our building had no damage, yet we still had no power. I simply cannot imagine not being home yet or left wondering if I will ever be able to return.
That is a sobering reality that fellow Calgarians are facing, but the worst of the flooding happened in a nearby town High River. Sadly, the name speaks for itself. One of my high school friends who was also one of my bridesmaids has spent the last week wondering what will be waiting for them when they finally do return home. Her family (husband of 16 years and twin girls) and her parents have homes in the worst affected area in High River and will not even be able to return for even a look at what the damage is for another 3-5 weeks. The water is just too high to even get in. There’s no chance to plan ahead for what is to come. My heart continues to break, especially after she shared an update on Facebook the other day… here’s a glimpse:
‘… From a logistics standpoint myself and my parents are in the worst of the areas impacted by this event and are bracing for complete rebuilding and are unsure how long it will take to remove the 500 million gallons, yes million, of water that surround them. Yes we are ok, yes we understand things are just things but what we grieve most is our homes. Not just our house as a thing but our home. Remember how long you hunted for your favorite pair of shoes or those comfy sweats you had forever. My favorite Bra! I am not overly sentimental but starting over seems overwhelming when you think about the years you have spent creating one. It hits you at the weirdest times and sometimes all at once. The girls are troopers but it hits them to, they are anxious and uncertain and sad. Sleep for me has been evasive, as soon as I wake up I remember and I have to brace for the onslaught. All the details that I don’t know take my breath away. And the ones I do break my heart…’
Reading her perspective and thoughts on what I would never have considered has been greatly humbling. Sometimes when you know others are still facing crisis of some sort, you find it hard to move on in your own life. The least that I can do for them is to pray, and I do every single day. I am hanging on to hope and God’s promises that He will (and does!) take care of His own.
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
If we could all hold them up in prayer whenever we have a chance, I know that they would be incredibly grateful. In times like this it’s important to lift each other up and share in each other’s pain. We are so blessed to have that freedom, aren’t we?
Needless to say, we were incredibly grateful to have had our power restored just before our Canada Day long weekend. It took a few days for Marc and I to get back into a routine again, even with that extra day of rest. We certainly needed it! As I mentioned in my last post, I was also grateful to have had a decent amount of normality when it came to my meals when staying at my in-laws. But when we came home on Thursday, we had a ton of grocery shopping to do as our fridge was completely empty!
You know, that actually felt really good! To start fresh and get rid of lingering bottles of who knows what leftover from who knows when! Even though we have completely replenished most of what we needed, our fridge is still looking clean and tidy! Back to basics friends, I LOVE it!
I think it’s a perfect time to share another round of…
Back to simplicity in my meals…
bone broth w/ golden beets, arugula, grass-fed ground beef
plantain chips, sautéed romaine, avocado
cauliflower mash, sautéed kale, ground grass-fed beef
spaghetti squash, sautéed zucchini, onions, avocado
With some new additions…
acorn squash, baked halibut (with garlic, coconut aminos, ginger root, olive oil), blanched asparagus, avocado
plantain pancakes w/ coconut nectar, dried black mulberries
plantain sandwich w/ avocado, swiss chard, cilantro
And to celebrate being home… wine from one of our winery tours in Napa, California! Elyse Winery was one of the stops we made after being hooked up by one of the managers at J Webb here in Calgary. Marc and I both loved this winery, and can’t wait to go back and visit when we return to San Francisco! This 2008 Zinfandel was delicious…
This was one major treat; I haven’t had wine since our trip to San Francisco almost two months ago!
Ok, ok, there may have been another glass the day after
Some pretty good meals since I’ve been home, if I do say so myself!
I haven’t updated you all on my food elimination for a while. It’s still a work in progress and most often than not, I’ve been frustrated with how slow this process is so I haven’t felt like writing about it or complaining. Some days are alos frustrating in trying to figure out what the heck to eat, it leaves me a bit grumpy to say the least. Most days are better than others, don’t get me wrong. I know full well that this is not a quick fix, but I just wish the symptoms would be relieved at least a little. Of course, the stress has not helped in any way. My skin has been a nightmare, especially in the last few weeks. When I reintroduced grass-fed beef into my routine my complexion has not been good period, but then the stress of the flood brought it over the top.
And speaking of period, that still has not shown its ugly little head yet. While I’m trying to be positive, it’s hard to keep going with what I’m doing and not seeing much for results, and even seeing it get worse. Now that I am back home and the stress has started to diminish, my skin is beginning to calm down. There’s that glimpse of hope! ;)
Through all of this, I am learning to chill out… a little. The ability to keep my elimination and rotation of foods during the chaos in the last few weeks is nothing short of a miracle. I am proud that I was able to be consistent, albeit with a few hiccups. I do have to understand that putting undue pressure on myself to be perfect is not the answer either.
Life is meant to be lived, not endured. I’ve been through enough already; I need to continue this practice of letting go!
In the meantime, I continue to be creative in (now my own!) kitchen, and continue to be grateful for all that I have… and to be able to move, even though I haven’t been back running yet! Oh, that’s another thing I haven’t updated you on for a long time. Since I have been on this food sensitivity elimination (two months now), I have been staying clear of any sort of daily workout regimen and running. I don’t want to put more pressure on myself or push my body too hard when I’m in the middle of intense gut healing. I tend to push harder than I should to make up for lost time, I feel it’s best to avoid that. I’m also paranoid of getting too hungry after a workout that I won’t be able to replenish my body enough. I still have work to do in balancing meals out to be properly satiated, nourished and fueled.
To be completely honest, I hadn’t been doing anything for almost a month, but have now started walking more and enjoying the gorgeous summer weather we are finally having!
This past weekend I put my Blend Retreat tank top and my new favorite trail shoes, Brooks Pure Grit, to good use at Nosehill Park in Calgary! I am a HUGE fan of these shoes, I’ve never owned Brooks shoes before. LOVE them!
I hope to get back running soon, I do miss it. But I’m going to take my time and listen to my body when it tells me I need to rest and take it easy. It’s a lesson I learn every day, but it’s getting easier. It’s all a test in patience my friends, you’d think I’d be a pro! Though I know that I’m that much stronger because of it.
So, now that it’s summer, what have you all been doing to enjoy the outdoors? How are you simplifying your meals? I know many of you are dealing with intense, hot weather, so what is your favorite way to cool of?!
Happy Wednesday lovelies! Oh and Happy Fourth of July to all of my family and friends down south!!