Oh yes my loves, it’s happened. This thing called life has taken over and this blog has taken a back seat. I’m pretty darn sure I’m not the only one this has happened to, but I can truly say that I’m not sorry! Geez, how’s that for honesty?!
Can I be even more real here? There are times when struggles, hurdles, or experiences are not meant to be shared, and there are times that I just don’t have much to say. Instead of writing to fill space, I decided to take a break. It wasn’t a clear or concise decision, in fact I simply stopped writing and I’ve been ok with that.
Even now as I write, I’m not entirely sure that I’m ready to be back.
I have adored having this outlet to share my experiences with you, though there comes a time when an experience or struggle needs to just be for me. I wear my heart on my sleeve (many times to a fault) and I know that once I start, there’s no stopping. My focus must be on taking the time to heal; physically, emotionally and spiritually, to get through what life has thrown at me in such a short amount of time. This is not to say that I am wallowing or hiding, but I am so incredibly raw that I feel over-sharing is not in my best interest.
I’ve also become increasingly aware of how others may be affected by what I post in terms of what I have been eating throughout this seemingly very long process of gut-healing and food elimination due to extreme sensitivities, hormone issues and PCOS. Writing an entire post on such things feels much different from posting on Instagram and Twitter, which I have continued to do. It’s hard to explain why, but again, when I blog I feel that I have to explain everything to a tee, make sure I’m not offending anyone, and look like I know what I’m doing all at the same time.
Transparency alert: most times I really don’t know what I’m doing!!
I also haven’t been reading many blogs in the last month or so, partly for that reason. I love you all, and I do miss reading what’s going on in your lives. It’s encouraging to see how much you are impacting lives while living yours. I have been drawn to so many of you because of health scares that we share. Seriously, there are so many women struggling with their health, and I want to help in any way that I can. But sometimes I feel that it can be a hindrance, or a negative to constantly post what I am eating, how I am supplementing and making others feel they have to do the same. There’s a danger in making others feel that what they are doing is not good enough.
Never do I ever want to contribute to that. We are all on our own journey, I will be the first one to remind anyone of that! I’m not saying that there is anyone specifically that has made me feel this, it’s my own raw-ness (for lack of a better word, if it is one!) that I have to come to terms with. For now, avoiding food posts and posts related to working out, etc., has helped me focus on what my body needs instead of comparing to someone else. **edited to add: Please also understand that I am not here to criticize anyone else’s approach.
This also has to do with the time it takes out of my life. I’ve had to re-prioritize what feels right for me. I honestly can appreciate that there may be some of you that have been waiting for me to share and update more because you are going through the same struggles, and for that I am so sorry I haven’t been around. Please understand that this is a season that hopefully will end soon, I hope you can understand where I am coming from.
With all of this, I will say that exciting things are coming up, that I can’t wait to start but feeling petrified at the same time. One being the Certified Culinary Nutrition Program starting in September with Meghan Telpner. This is the program that I have wanted to take for a long time, and now that it is offered online I am incredibly grateful to be a part of it. I just hope I don’t screw it up! I have such a passion for the culinary side of nutrition and I know this will take me to places I never thought I could ever go. What that looks like, I have no idea but it’s
scary exhilarating nonetheless!
I do have a feeling that once I start the program the creative juices will start flowing again and I’ll be back and ready for more blogging action!
Thank you my friends, sincerely. You all have been an incredible support over the last year, some of you may not even know it. I am looking forward to getting back in to the swing of things soon… maybe with a new look?! I LOVE changing things up! In the meantime, follow me on Instagram and Twitter for some shenanigans… I’d love to see you, the more the merrier!
With much love, peace and health,
Question of the day: What have you had to put on the back-burner to focus on you and your health? Is there any stress in your life that you know you need to let go of?! What will you do to listen to that voice?
quote courtesy of joyoushealth.ca