This Easter weekend has been a special one. Not only are we reminded of the hope we have in Christ, but I feel a new life has begun in me. It’s nothing like I have felt in a long time.
I took a much needed break. I decided to have an analog weekend and turned Twitter, Facebook and Instagram off my phone. I needed to take a step away and live life. No distractions, just focus on my family, my husband and God. I’ve got to tell you, it was incredibly liberating! No pictures were taken; no time was spent scrolling through posts, comments, articles that really could just wait. And you know, the world just kept turning. Fancy that.
It’s amazing how much time you have when you’re not editing the pictures of breakfast you want to post on every possible form of social media, and how much battery life you have left on your phone when you’re not checking it every five minutes. Do you realize how much more life you have to live when you are in the moment not reading up on what this person is doing or eating, and then sitting there wishing you were doing or eating the same thing? So much energy and time is wasted when you are constantly wishing you had what someone else has.
What a lesson learned! Now, I don’t think that social media is all bad, and I’m not saying I will never go back to checking it every once in a while. But it’s time to stop letting it control my decisions, and how I spend my time. I love the connection with incredible people who love and have a passion for the same things I do on these forums, but I personally have let it take over far too much. In an unhealthy way.
This analog weekend has taught me even more than that. It has taught me to let go of what is not serving me, for now. The Easter service we attended a few days ago was an eye-opener and reminder that my focus has not been where it should be. Even though I have felt certain things slip away, I know that I can begin again, any time.
I have come to the realization that the intensity of the last year/year and a half in the food elimination, digestive healing, and everything else, is starting to break me and take its toll. I’ve had a few break downs in the last few weeks, one last week that was different than what I had experienced before, and there is a reason for that. The amount of supplements I’m taking, making sure that I take them at the right time, on the right day, in the right form, has me completely and utterly exhausted. I had been thinking about this for a while, and honestly feel the stress of keeping up is weighing me down far more than it’s helping me. There have been a few friends that have spoken to this truth as well. I am so grateful for them! It finally came to a head yesterday, when I realized that I had been doing the hormone seed cycling protocol completely wrong this past month. It showed me how incredibly out of sorts I truly am.
Letting my fear of undoing everything I have worked so hard for to control everything, has taken over. When I realized my mistake yesterday, I actually felt a relief. Well, at first I was frustrated, but then I felt a huge weight was lifted off. I was racking my brain trying to figure out how I could possibly have done this wrong, when a voice, God’s voice, said, ‘Trust me.’ Clear as day, no question.Two simple words. Two simple words that cover any doubt, questions, any fear that I have of giving up control.
It is my responsibility to hear those words and act on them. A new life has begun. A new chapter. How awesome is that?! I have stuck with going my own way for so long; it’s time for Someone else to take those reins. To do the work He wants to do in me. So, for the next few weeks, my time and energy will be spent enjoying life, enjoy the traveling I will be doing in the next few weeks. Enjoying the life I have been given, because you know what? It’s pretty darn great.
You know what else is pretty darn great? Hot cross buns. I know, I’m super late to the party on this one. But seriously. Yum.
What’s even better is that I have a delicious recipe to share with you, one that I had a lot of time to work on during a busy few days spent with family thanks to my analog weekend! I had a lot of fun making hot cross buns; I have never made them before! Yes, I’m posting the recipe even though it’s a tad too late for the Easter weekend; though it turns out that it would be the perfect breakfast!
Unfortunately, I have no pictures to share. That’s the price I had to pay for a phone-free weekend and nothing leftover… I’m not sorry about that, but you’ll forgive me, right?! edited to add pictures: I did have a few buns leftover!
Grain-free Hot Cross Buns
adapted from iquitsugar.com
Makes 12 – 14
1 tbsp psyllium husks + 1/4 cup water
1 1/2 cup almond meal
3/4 cup coconut flour
3/4 cup arrowroot flour
1/2 tsp baking soda, aluminum-free
1/2 tsp baking powder
3 tsp ground cinnamon
1 tsp allspice
1/2 tsp ground nutmeg
1/2 tsp ground ginger
1/4 tsp ground cloves
5 eggs, organic & free-range
1/2 cup nut milk
1 tsp apple cider vinegar
1/4 cup + 1 tbsp coconut oil, melted
2 tablespoons coconut nectar
1 teaspoon finely grated orange zest
raisins, to your preference
1. Preheat oven to 350ºF. Lightly grease/line a muffin tin.
2. In a small bowl, whisk together psyllium husks and 1/4 cup water. Set aside.
3. Mix almond meal, flours and the rest of the dry ingredients in a large bowl.
4. In a separate bowl add the eggs and lightly beat until frothy. Whisk in coconut oil, psyllium mixture, the rest of the wet ingredients and orange zest.
5. Add wet mixture to dry and combine well. Fold in raisins.
6. The batter will be thick, I found it best to scoop about a 1/3 cup amount, roll it into a ball, then place in prepared muffin tin.
7. To make crosses, lightly score the top with a damp knife into the dough. This will create a nice cross when baked, perfect for filling with melted coconut butter if you choose!
8. Bake for 20-25 minutes, or until lightly golden.
These buns are best when eaten warm, slightly toasted with a dab of ghee or your favorite spread! Also a great pairing with soup. Hey, we’ve barely had spring, I’m still craving hot soup!
Don’t be scared off by the amount of ingredients. I usually try to keep it at a minimum, but this recipe is so easy regardless! I definitely need to make more, they were gone pretty fast. My dad and I had a bit of a hot cross bun bake-off/exchange, so that was fun. He came up with his own plantain version that was quite good!
I hope you all had a wonderfully blessed Easter weekend, and were able to spend it with family and close friends. It was certainly full of rest and relaxation for us; I truly hope you feel just as renewed, rejuvenated and re-inspired!
What was the highlight of your weekend? Is there anything in your life that you are fearful of letting go? I would love to hear your thoughts.
I know that I talk a lot about letting go on this blog, but it’s something that I feel needs to be consciously practiced consistently. It’s also a good reminder to live life, and to live it to its fullest.